2 Chronicles 32:39 And so in the matter of the envoys of the princes of Babylon, who had been sent to him to inquire about the sign that had been done in the land, God left him to himself, in order to test him and to know all that was in his heart.
MSG says, 'God left him on his own to see what he would do; he wanted to test his heart.'
You know there are times that God withdraws His presence from us in order that we pursue Him. That we build resilience and character. That our relationship is based more than on goosebumps and feelings.
There are other times when we are disobedient and a lack of the presence of God draws us to repentance. (Like with David who prayed take not thy presence from me.)
There was a time in India this was the case with me. We did a crusade. One night several blind eyes opened (six or seven) it was truly glorious.
The next night I think I thought I was Benny Hinn. Pride had got in. When I went to preach. I stood on the red carpet looked at the crowd over the pulpit.
I think I thought it was all for me.
I was expecting the glory, the anointing, the presence of God, when I spoke; but there was nothing. Nothing.
I wanted to run. I didn't want to preach.
If I could have got out of it I would. But I learnt a valuable lesson that night that stays with me to this day.
I felt like God was saying, "hey you think you're such a big shot, let's see how well you do without me."
I never want to be in that place again being left to myself. Being left alone. That night I got on my face and repented.
I want you to know anything good in me anything at all: is Jesus. On my own I can, and want to do nothing. I am totally dependent on the Holy Ghost and His work.
There are other times God just leaves us to ourselves. To test our hearts. If we want Him.
You know when this happens I find myself totally craving and
pursuing God. It's at these times we put roots down deep.
Do your feel like your on your own all by yourself?
What are you gonna do?
Choose to pursue God because you want Him. He wants to be wanted.
If you feel you have been left to yourself maybe just maybe God is testing to see what's in your heart
Pass the test go after Him. If you sinned, repent: Give Him Glory. Tell Him you can't, and you don't want to do anything without him.
Father God I need You. I don't want to be left on my own. I run to You. I am totally dependent on You Jesus. Forgive me for being independent or for having pride in Jesus' name amen.